WTF!!!!
Good morning, maybe NOT!!!
Days that make you feel like shit, like this one , today, yes this is one of them...
woke up feeling like shit
pain in my stomach or lower stomach , I don't know anymore I just need to pee, and still tired wanna stay in bed few more minutes, Hours just not stand up and smell the fucking roses...
but i had to if i don't want to pee in my bed... so there I go , after that wash my hands while I see my face in the mirror , who the fuck is this ???? Yep is me overweight, old, puffy eyes, smudge make up, dry lips, you get the point!
I see my face but is not really me at least i don't remember looking like this, my self esteem it was way up high last night , so its a surprise to see this, this face . A face that can tell stories about disappointments in her life, acne stories, countless sleepless night, alcohol, smoking, chickenpox, drugs, lots of shit..... this skin couldn't take it anymore. Years had pass and I couldn't tell i felt them, but my face and body could tell.
Ouch , now my body it was aching from a bad posture, the bed, weight, etc. I don't really know , maybe "everything of the above", can I blame pregnancy in all this?, but I see a lot of woman that had a litter of kids and not overweight, no stretch marks, happy, LIFE IS SO UNFAIR!, that was my thought in that moment. Or let me blame it on my mattress , damn it, my back ouch.....
body is complaining, my muscle, haven't seen healthy tissue in a while, no exercise. I don't eat "healthy" anymore , i did when I was a teen, and is been a long time since that healthy period, Ohhhh and don't let me start with my period, i wont go there.... HATE IT!, but if you don't get it or either you're pregnant , or getting old, I have a new though you don't want to get pregnant so you use that shot and your period disappear completely after of course , a few dosage of hormones, the bad side effect of this is that or you die from a heart attack, or you gain like 60 lbs,but you wont get pregnant.
What a shitty day , at least this morning part when you look yourself in the mirror and see your life has past you by and screw you while at it.... GOOD MORNING!
