Letter to Love:
Really, I just wanted to tell you that I think you are complicated, selfish, hypocrite , conceited , and all the bad names any written and spoken language can give you, Yes my Love, first, you come to me in this sweet and interesting fragrance that I can almost taste, but I can't .
Then I get close to you and you make me wait for you to make sure I am the one you're looking for, come on, really? takes me days to fall for you and years to forget you.
Love you've been hurting all of me. Don't play anymore, just be honest. I really don't believe you can, you hide behind flowers, chocolate, romantic music, beautiful smiles, honey eyes, etc. Yes the list can go on and on....
Why do you make me like you? then just let me go "for our own good" what the hell does that mean????
Some friends tell me that you are loyal, that you truly respect me and accept me for who I am. I think you show me your love face and is just lust what is really inside you.
I don't think is all that bad, but anyway, see I lost it right there, even writing about your face comes and goes.
I didn't pass the test of survival , I know that I have to surrender to you but it's hard to let go of what I've been taught over the years, and also I think you just want me to be stronger, but I can't, I'm weak and scare to give you all I am, I know your not asking for that , but sometimes I have the feeling that you will one day ask for it.
What I'm feeling is horrible, not having you drives me crazy but I know this will help me to know myself better and that's a good thing, a very good thing, I've been lost for a while, even long before I met you, yes, sorry I didn't tell you before , again my fears of expectations, so It was a good thing having you for a while, I've learned that hate is not good for my soul, it will destroy my stomach, (Stomach Ulcers are really painful), and my poor lungs are starting to fight against all that smoke I've inhaled, is enough with all the contamination we already have on planet earth,
OK, I'll let you go now, hope we can be friends and maybe someday I will be ready to have you once again.
Stay true to yourself , I know I will......WELL AT LEAST I WILL TRY.
your friend
Blue
